stand strong!

sceptical !

2012-01-26T00:42:00.001-08:00

hello,i'm just 17. i don't know what to say. so far i've only dated 3 guys. i guess no guys will be interested in me anymore. great,tahniah la brena. hebat la anda! so what are you gonna do? well u guys out there,maybe the guys i'll date are only 3 but tak termasuk my future husband. so kiranya,my last boyfriend is my future husband. yes,sayang i'll wait for you wherever you are. and yes,i'll wait.

hell yeah !

2012-01-25T23:52:00.001-08:00

give me a break :O

2012-01-24T23:29:00.000-08:00

i'm alone at home wishing that i could go out. man! anyone sanggup tak ambil brena from here? anyways,i'm working my ass off here and thinking when will otheres hantar da pics that i wmt for my kerja kursus. oh man.! well pysics blog 5 maju pun tak buat lagi inroduction. bukan i tak leh buat it's just that it has to be a proper islamic speech. quote like,"bersyukur ke hadrat ilahi.. and so on. man =,= im blank. i'm trying my best to be the best.

bak kata Adele:set fire to the rain (:

2012-01-23T02:44:00.000-08:00

trying to be as strong as i as can. i'll be flying to the horizon.

strive to the very last drop of my sweat.

2012-01-22T01:33:00.000-08:00

i'm starting back from A now. yes,i'm single and no more distractions O Lord.Amen.

read this: SAYA DOAKAN BRENA DAPAT 9A+

xmas 2011 (:

2011-12-25T10:28:00.000-08:00

christmas was awesome. i finally get to see kak KD. the new member of the family. she's really awesome. and well abang lokman is lucky to have her. she's smart u knw? a petronas scholar dude (: anyways,here are some of the pics.
oh ya,donta's gf came. ahah talk about family (: well she's pretty laaa.

oh ya,hello sabah!

2011-12-23T18:40:00.000-08:00

merry christmas (:

and then SABAH !

*photos will be updates soon.

jom tunang!

2011-12-20T07:11:00.000-08:00

memang terasa la i'm getting older. my cousins who were once my bestfriends are engaged. it's juat like yesterday when i was so shy to talk to Abng Lokman. Now,woila! he's like engaged to the most beautiful person i've ever met. so now,we like have to call her Kak KD. no,it's not krisdayanyi. it's khadijah. Kak lynn says she's awesome to hang out. well we all lil cousin will soon get to meet her this xmas for our xmas party oh yeah! Abng.Lokman i know that we're not that close but i just want to wish u congrats.(oh yeah,my mum went to the engagement party)

psst,
to my husband to be,
whoever you are,i hope u'll be that guy,
that i've always looked for.

see u at our engagement party. theme? purple of course (:

my little letter for u.

2011-12-18T21:24:00.000-08:00

hey you. i hope u'll read this letter. it's officially for u.that saturday was the most desperate days. i really needed u that time. everybody was not there. i called. i've tried. NO. i'm not saying that u were a bad boyfriend. in fact you were one of the best. lasy night what u said really opened my eyes,that u've given everything to me but i was too foolish to realise that i was lucky to have you. u texted me everytime when u;re free. no it's not because of boredom. you called me when u miss me the most. tak kira la pagi tengah hari or even malam. bg u its berbaloi to spend all those credit on me. with that sumpah i terharu. i felt like i was the best possesion for u. the guilt in me is building up. no i won't repeat the same mistakes i've done to my previous man. yes,i won't ambil balik kata-kata i. brena u ada maruah. remember everything happens for a reason. that's why i tak nak reload,i tak nak charge phone,i tak nak reactivate my facebook. i'm just to ego to go back. i don't know why. i still love you,yes,it's so obvious. but hey,someday u'll find ur miss beautiful. the girl that u would cherish ur whole life with me. eventhough i knw it's not me,but at least i'll be glad seeing u happy tih her. the thought of seeing u smile will make me happy. hey you,u'll always be my macha. i'll miss the times u whispered to my ears those three words. i know it's a common word,but hearing it from you made me alive. a date is the only thing i'll remember u of. yes,everything on that day was meant to be cherised. i'll stop wishing for u to call or text me. my hope has shruken. it kills me to say this but please get lost. i need to move on.yes,ur name tag n bookmark i akan postkan to azmer. sorry to susahkan u. till then i'll miss u.

sincerely brena.

BEAUTIFUL

2011-12-18T06:16:00.000-08:00

yeah,i want to look like her.

dress like her.

CAN I?

2011-12-18T04:55:00.000-08:00

i need to go.

2011-12-18T04:45:00.000-08:00

last night,alone kat rumah. sumpah bosan gila. on facebook but xda sorg pun tegur. handphone pun tak berdering. message dari celcom adala. bukan apa. ordinary nights i tak kisah,but nie weekends. dah la mama n hesper pergi KL sebab Abng.Lokman tunang. Kak lynn n my other cousins pun pergi. Uncle Key,pergi Bintulu sebab ada kerja. Papa pergi tido kat hotel sebab ada meeting dgn boss besar dia. Donata pergi tido dgn Dylan. so yeah,it feels like everybody doesn't care about me. dah la today is the only day i tak ada activity. yea la biasanya ada tuition kan? so yeah,i'm starting back all over again. my life is back to zero. i need to find my inner peace. my facebook dah deactivate. my handphone number maybe akan ditukar. so yea,goodbye my peeps.

bersyukur la nie.

2011-12-18T02:38:00.000-08:00

i'm just sitting,eating,waiting,watching,crying,sleeping while the earth keeps spinning round. merci life =,=

nobody gets me :(

2011-12-18T02:27:00.001-08:00

oh God hear my prayer =,=

2011-12-18T02:24:00.000-08:00

i feel like nobody know's me now. even my parents.
u tau tak mama i bli
i bag miss whatever?
hello,i'm 16 for goodness sake. =,=
i don't mean to be ungrateful la k?
so anyone nak bag miss whaever,roger me.
i'm willing to sell it for Rm10.
please and thank you

random fact 101

2011-12-17T20:13:00.000-08:00

say it loud say it clear,

I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND (:

downloading songs .

2011-12-17T19:55:00.000-08:00

for this moment ~~jangan~~ tegur Brena. =,=
nak jadi lifeless jap.
nak download songs untuk ipod yg dah lama berkarat.
nanti blk SMSS taku menyesal jaa.
till den,bye.

oh ya,tlng bg cadangan lagu. (:

the girl (:

2011-12-16T23:45:00.000-08:00

syasya is what i call her. yeah,she's obviously too AWESOME for u guys. this girl is really ENTHUSIASTIC in everything she does. hey,mesti u tertanya-tanya sejak bila brena kenal sya kn? well i knew her since form 2. yea la,syaa org HOT kat woc. At first brena ingat nak tegur tp malu la kn mana tau tetba nanti syaa buat x tau lak. hancur la maruah brena.=,= she's obviously very SMART. hey,ingat nak jumpa syaa officially time woc this year. time bengkel trombone. but u knw what? i terstuck kenal her two juniors instead? adohyai hancut harapan nk hangout dgn syaa. well,i'm here stuck in sarawak while she's in kl. when i'm in kl,she pula stuck kat seremban. hey u knw what darl,nanti afta spm kita akan hang out lama-lama.

oh ya..
pssst.

syaa,eventhough i may only be u're friend from another state,but hey remember i'm always here for u. biar i taekwando anyone who breaks your heart. i takkan tanya what's ur prob,but i'll wait for u to share wit me. nanti kalau brena kaya dgn kredit i call k? oh ya,mlm-mlm webcam la jom . LASTLY,LOVE YA KAWAN(:

someday we will laugh back at all the memories (:

2011-12-15T01:31:00.000-08:00

this girl is my one and only dear sister. yeah, i teringat lg time kita sama-sama jd POD kat blk OP kan?mak cik tu kata both of us adik beradik. myb sebab bth of us muka cm bola kan?BULAT i mean. ahha. cuma adry lg obvious. DORAEMON is her name. yes,when i was with izwan last time she was the one who gave me advices. yes,her advices work. awesome kan?she's always there when i need her. a shoulder to cry on too. you know what? no one deserves her right now. yes,i am being selfish. i don't want anyone to take my sister away from me. especially the guy who once held her heart. KEEP OUT. whoever lepas nie yg nak kenal dgn dia,i have one word for you. BACKOFF. sayang,i dh janji dengan you no matter what happens i will always have your back. i know life's tough but u must always remember that this is just another cubaan given by God. sayang,after every great fall you must rise up and put your chin up high to climb back. yes,i've been down that road almost like a thousand times~~(yes,i know i'm overreacting)~~ it's not easy but you know what?, along this journey i get to see who my real friends are.Adrina my baby girl please the conversation that we had last night was so heartwarming. it was long since we've had that one on one conversation. darl,i'm glad to have a friend like you. please roger me if u need me. i'll always be there for you. muah (:

karma?

2011-12-15T01:20:00.000-08:00

yesterday was officially the worse day of my life.

pengajaran rambut baru?

2011-12-10T20:19:00.000-08:00

that afternoon kak lynn ajak kluar. tengok-tengok nak bw i g potong rmbt. memang dr dlu she janji tp yeah la,i still love my old hair. eventhough it's ugly long n tak terurus. hey my old haircut did not change until i naik f5. bila naik ja form5,ambik kau! tiba-tiba ada fringe kat depan muka. rmbt blkng dh kembali curly? adohyai? cmne nie? well,kena biasakn dr la k? at least ada la bg new semangat for next year. thanks kak lynn. i'll get used to this new hair. adohyai. maybe others will say it ~~UGLY~~. but then,i'll just think positive. that no matter what people who knows me better will not judge me just because of the outside. so yeah,u'll see. one day,my new hair will be the jealousy of everyone. pfft. dream on la brena =,=

0812 (: woah!

2011-12-08T07:33:00.000-08:00

it has been 4 years since we've stepped onto SM Science Selangor.Those 4 years ain't easy but with guys the journey became smoother. and with that i thank you. no matter what i love you Eminent 0812.Please forgive me for all my mistakes.I promise i'll change. Let's make ou parents,teachers and family proud of us. SPM 2012 please beware of us.we are coming (:

i look retarded =,=

2011-12-08T07:11:00.000-08:00

the decent passport picture (:

credits to kamal.

kuching is soo small =,=

2011-12-08T07:01:00.000-08:00

what do u guys feel when meeting ur old arch enemy? well here's my story. dlu,wen i was in preshool,i had this so called crush with this guy. but he always bullied me. so lama-lama cinta bertukar dendam. so yeah,bila dh primary 1 each go their seperate ways. but that was what i thought. this guys mother went to my old preschool and asked for my mama's phone number. jeng jeng! u tau why? sebab she wanted to send her son of hers to the same school as me. so bermulalah perang dunia2. adohyai. sumpah tak tenteram. we always had to fight for 1,2,3 in class. damn =,= and then after primary6 kita say ~~BYEBYE~~ lagi la kn? he went to Lodge International School while i go to SM Science Selangor. why u're askin me i wrote this post? crita tak habis lagi. this morning i went to my 1 on tuition for physics. Mr lai my teacher told me that a guy will join me. only 2 of us. dlm hati,i mcm wat?my mum told me it was a girl. and jeng jeng jeng,the moment the guy stepped into the room,it was him. Ernest Moa. my long lost buddy =,= yes,we both had to sit together and menghadap physics together. you know what all my family members said,~~JODOH LA!~~ no! i don't like him. if can,i want to crush him into pieces. damn. i have 4 more sessions with him at Mr Lai. OMG. oh ya,yg paling i pisse off is when he minta pen kat Mr.lai. hello? i'm right beside u! cakap ja la! i'm beside u. last last i bg ja la,without looking at him. dah la tak cakap thank you. =,=

yuyu (:

2011-12-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

i was just louging in this sofa at kak lynn's house and then ada la pula niat nk buka fb. so yeah,dpt pula post nie from the one and only yulaina (:

hey brenabuckland, iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou. its almost 5 years of us being as batchmate aiteee? you are one lucky girl. those shine in yourself often makes me wonder about being a growing up teenager and about being myself. thanks for everything sis. your bed, your pillow, your food *hihi, catching me up at corridor and be by my side just to know if i'm okay with the tears. anddd your inspiratio...nal thoughts :) and yes, we used to share a lot of time together when we were younger, joining the same society and working as partners. hate to say this, but i already miss those moments ;'( . yeah, i may be the least important person in your life, but whatever so i want you to know that i 'll always there for you if you ever need me. lets us strive and work harder in order to pursue our dreams next year. SPM! fighting! yes, no more pain. lets gain some more. sorry if i failed to be a buddy that you expected. i miss ya, sarawakgirl! ♥
inmemoryofourbatchday (:

here's my letter to you,

sayang yes it has been 4 years since we've known each other. maybe kita close pun sebab kita dua-dua prefect kan last year? sama-sama band lagi tu. i know tension sayang kat band,but eventhough i'm not in it anymore i'll always support u. hey,all our problems we share it kan? studies? i know i'm not smart,but i want u to know that if u ada problem dlm studies i'm always here to lend a hand for u. u pula kongsi-kongsi la ilmu k? yuyu,u're awesome and u must know that. try kurangkan dating kat tangga mlm2 dgn fon anda. wipe away all those tears sayang. ke nak brena juga? aww sweetnya. u know i love u like cupcakes :)and thanks so much for always being there,and hey katil brena mmg port singgah pun. i know u miss me. chewah :D

my second chance (:

2011-12-06T06:33:00.000-08:00

this guy coloured up my life. yes,he did made my life all topsy turvy when i was in sadness. i know it was too soon,but hey he waited long enough. yes,i was ego at 1st to terima u but then felly nasihatkn brena. she said myb brena this ur 2nd chance. the guy that may put a smile on ur face. time square was where we met. shy at 1st but then skng tak kn? thanks for understanding me. yes,u said ur goodmorning and goodnight everyday. yes,we jarang text. yes,i don't call u sayang. yes,i don't layan u sangat sometimes. but thanks for understanding.i'm busy now with all my tuition but u took it positive. u said it was for the sake of ou future gak. abd u know what? hearing u said that made me smile. why,u may ask? it made me happy knowing that u know all our responsibilities as a student. thanks so much. yes,we made our deal. so please don't smoke. i mean ever. if u're willing to gsacrifice our relationship then silakan. i can't force you. i can't do much to show my love,but this post is all i can give to show my love to u.

it's true, i love you.

Myza (:

2011-12-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

u know her and u'll fall for her. she's the hyperactive,smart,pretty,dagu sista of mine. both prefect yg ~~BERWIBAWA~~ (:

why this picture? u know la kan? love ya

Gorz.

2011-12-06T06:01:00.000-08:00

today i korek-korek la kan my iphone and i terjumpa this very long text from the guy that used to make me ~~high in love~~. OMG,all those tears came dripping by.i know i've found someone but deep down i wished we could still be friends instead of enemies. yes,i tau u dah bakar all the stuff that i gave you,but why should u do that? i trust u. and u know what? that secret is safe with me. i'll cherish the song that u gave,kerna ku sayang kamu (: thanks.

boyz 2 men made a song for mama (:

2011-12-06T05:45:00.000-08:00

maybe all my cousins are coming back for christmas. tak kisah la yg dah kahwin ke blum everyone WAJIB balik to kuching. everyones's anxious to kumpul as a family. currently,my cousins and i are practising this song to sing to all our mothers and especially our beloved nenek. SUMPAH YOU GUYS WILL CRY. i don't know why,this year i got closer with my mum. Mama,i just want you to know that i love you and i'm tryin my best to make u proud.smile k mama? u know that ur smile will light up our days (:

beatles malaysia :)

2011-12-05T06:15:00.000-08:00

teringat kisah lama. you know every cuti makes me to appreciate my family even more. especially my cousins. FYI,my family is multiracial. u name it, i have malay,indian,negro,vietnamese? don't trust me? ask danial bahrain,or even nasri,amirul fahmi,and zulkifli.why? just ask them,and you'll know. ahha. my cousins are the best and be jealous. here's some of out vain pictures :)

a sister to rely on :)

2011-12-05T05:54:00.000-08:00

thanks kak lynn for being the awesom-est cousin.

hey,kak lynn u're not stupid. you can do it. every Dayus is special.

ohana means family. and in family nobody gets left behind.*courtesy to stitch*

it has only been a month and u've already gave me dresses that are way to ~~sexy~~,shorts that are ~~short~~,although as karoeke-ing,makan-makan like there's tomorrow and so on.

i just can't wait for this sabah trip. nanti kita smua pkai bikini yeah,shortdresses and the best thing is,

NO PARENTS SCOLDING US :)

lastly,i love ya

b.e.a.c.h. that's where all the fun is.

2011-12-04T23:34:00.000-08:00

i know it has been long since i've posted. oh well,it's ~~not~~ like i have any readers. *wink*
just ignore that.
yeah,the reason i've not been active was because i had tuition. sumpah penat.
but nak buat camne kan? oh well. bak kata budak rugby SMSS,"pain is temporary but glory is forever"
asal semangat tetba nie? oh well,i went to the beach. i did saw cute guys. but too bad they're too short for me. DAMN =,= (nun di sana,macha tgh panas!.)*i hope*(:
anyways,mama's house lost in the sukaneka. xpela kan mama?
ada cabutan bertuah at the last part of the sukaneka.
jeng jeng. mama won a new xperia and yes my Uncle Rickey won a51 inch flat screen tv.
woah. this proves that the DAYUS family rocks. go babai.*i miss u so much*
ok skip that emotional part. here are some of the pics,x banyak pun.
you want to knw why? my family is NOT vain .

yeah,lupa nak cakap,my bro,Donata taught me how to play frisbee at the beach. awesome gila. you jgn main-main. adik i nie pro kat. PEMAIN FRISBEE SARAWAK. woah :D

meet my sista :)

2011-11-28T20:59:00.000-08:00

there's only one word to describe her,AWESOME (:

beach

2011-11-24T22:08:00.000-08:00

SAYONARA! AM HEADIN TO THE BEACH.
to find some peace n tranquility.

why this pic u ask? well i do wish for a baby brother now. they're just adorable :)

just say you like me :)

2011-11-23T22:45:00.000-08:00

hey,next time mana tau kita akan cmnie.

i can dream,can i?

till then,i'm glad to have u macha.

btw:last night was awesome. eventhough it's just for while. and oh ya,did i ever told you,
that i like guys who plays the guitar :)

sumpah terharu darl :)

2011-11-23T22:41:00.000-08:00

Alia,you were awesome to me when i was at SEMASHUR for homestay. u really were part of the

best memories during form3. thanks so much for being an awesome friend to me.

although,banyak kali plan kita cancel,i know one day kita akan jumpa gak.

so yeah,i'll wait for that day. darl,sama2 la kita achieve that 9A+ k? for now,i only dedicate,Bruno Mars's song to you,yes count on me :D

dah insaf. and yes,i'll rise back :)

2011-11-23T22:36:00.000-08:00

everyone's busy-ing checking their results online. and mine was damn teruk OMG. oh well,it's too later for regrets. when i think back,it's ok. i've tried my best and that's what matters. my macha told me,that at least that failure happened after SPM,the real big thing. it could help you bounce back to the top again. my man,Mr.Buckland told me,that in life,people who beared the pain,are people who'll suceed. they take those failures as a new objective to move forward. so here i am saying proudly,yes,i know i'll ~~not~~ be in 5 Jaya next time,but i'll soon enter back into that class. eat my words everyone. i've started tuition. and yes,i'm grabbing every oppurtunity that i can. so yeah,go and have fun guys. i'll be envy of you for now . toodles :D

there is only ONE DIRECTION to my heart :)

2011-11-22T22:04:00.000-08:00

sumpah,i say they're HOT. together they sing,

aww satu stadium boleh cair la bro. cuba tgk them.

semua nyanyi. no one tumpang. OMG.

i would trade for anything,for them to be my boyfriends :)

why won't you?

2011-11-22T21:52:00.000-08:00

P.L.E.A.S.E

woah,cliche much =='

2011-11-22T21:38:00.000-08:00

tengok blog orang rmai gila yg menjiwang. so what the heck? i pun nak menjiwang laa. bukan selalu pun kan?
well my macha,it has been a week since we've been together. woah! how the time flies. yeah,my macha is MINE. ~~so hands off~~. pfft =,=

when the time gets rough,he's text are always there to cheer me up. ahha SUPERMACHA.

*imagine macha in a superman suit* wah so ugly. ahah,and yes he's officially mine (:

tak nak SPM :(

2011-11-22T18:47:00.000-08:00

memang dilanda kebosanan gila. well,mama janji nak ambil Brena nie but it's almost 11. adohyai =='

nie yg tension nie. all i can say is that i can't wait for christmas. a day after that.HELLO BIKINIS :)

sun sand and islands. diving is a must. late night bbq's with my cousins. the thought of it bring smiles. cepat la.

nak lepak with all my cousins.

Adrina Raihan (:

2011-11-22T06:27:00.000-08:00

sumpah terharu gila,thanks.buka-buka ja FB nmpk message nie.

babe.thanks yaa, for the wall post. honestly,i appreciate it. thanks (:i miss you so much, sangat sangat.brena, here i'm again. the only reason kenapa i pergi sekolah join interview sebab i know my girlfriends are there (': i just miss you all. sebab kalau i sorang sorang duduk rumah, i would die. like seriously.and the whole 2 days that ispent with them, just make me happy. i had fun and the most greatest thing i could stop thinking about him for temporarily, at least. bacalah blog dia baru baru ni. tolonglah, i'm tired with all these dramas. it looks like macam dia dah ada someone yang rapat dengan dia. hahaha. ok -.- yahh i do trust you babe (: thank you!

it has been 4years since we've known each other kan? this year was really hectic. mujurla ada you. you taught me everything that i need to know. hey,SPM nak dekat. jom struggle sama-sama la k? we both have the same ambition. Doctors la kita k? hey you,i knw hw it hurts just because of a guy. the pain is really enscrutiating. but we need to stand up k? everything happens for a reason. and yes i do believe there is second chances in life. i love you till death la darling :D

mark my words!

2011-11-21T08:34:00.000-08:00

everywhere there is an inspiration. things don't come and go. everything happens for a reason. yes,i know what i'm saying is too cliche but it's true. you must learn to a ppreciate things before it disappears. trust me,regretness is just no use. remember to smile even if it crushes you from deep within. yes,i'm trying my best to change. to be better in life. forget what others say,i know i'm the best. and one day,i'll make you proud.

thanks for everything :D

2011-11-20T07:29:00.000-08:00

my form 4 life isn't as sweet as i had hoped. but then,it opened my eyes and i finally saw friends that really cared for me. all the crazy hectic and top turvy life of smss is just another excuse for me and my babies to be even stronger together. seriously,i'm glad to have you guys with me. thank you so much for always lending me your shoulder to cry on. everyday i'll try to be a better friend to you guys because i know that we all would have a bright future ahead after we step away from smss.it really is true that true friends are always there till the end..

questioned answered :D

2011-11-20T06:34:00.000-08:00

curiosity really killed the cat. no,don't get me wrong. it's good to have a liittle curiosity in life,but still sometimes why don't u just wait and see. but then i've promised macha. so here it goes.

you ask me,why do i love you?
wow. a really bombastic question.
why?
i'll tell you.

i like ur effort of never failing to put a smile on my face.after i've been left by * my heart was broken into a million pieces. yes,you want to know why? during that time,i thought that he was the one. the one that i'll spend my life with. but know,all this while he just thought i was a burden to him. after hearin those words from the person i loved the most,i decided to never love again. but then you came up. you really are sweet. i like ur approach at the taman.u pulled me,and whispered me in my ears that you loved me. aww,really sweet. to be honest,i melted into a hot chocolate. everyday u'll at least make an effort to call me as if i was really the most important thing to you. even if we jarang text,u'll at least say your goodnight. i really like talking to u. u always know what to say. sometimes you make me think that second chances are given in life even if we don't deserve it. i promise i'll never let go of these chance tolove u right. i'll try to make you happy like what you make me feel everytime i open my eyes to a new day. one more thing,you really have the effort to change to the better. you'll try to stop smoking even if it hurts u into pieces,and with that i thank you.i'll support you in life no matter how big or small the obstacle would be. lastly,i love u macha :)

yeah baby :)

2011-11-20T02:34:00.000-08:00

i just came back. woah,i'm actually glad to step in my very own land. SARAWAK. yes, i ngaku it has nothing. but to me,it has all the best memories that i cherish till now. i just can't wait to see what the hols has to offer to me

Macha x boleh buat suprise la 

2011-11-12T03:59:00.001-08:00

Do you know that i know this awesome macha? Well,he's great :) but i'll never tell him that. Kalau dia tahu,start la dia nak bangga bangga lak. Ahaa. Oh well,thanks so much for this awesome day. Eventhough skjp,ur presence was worth while. After SPM,la kay? Focus 100% dulu. Till then,i'm glad i know u macha. Dah la pendek. Ahah 

Damn,it is so obvious to u macha :D

2011-11-12T03:52:00.001-08:00

I can't believe i blushed when i saw u. Damn,i made it so obvious to u that i was nervous with all the running away scene. Typical Brena,pfft =,= pity,Felly who has to cope up with all the drama n commotions. I'm sorry for u macha,for giving u a scavanger hunt at time square. Thanks so freakin much to Felly for volunteering to teman me shopping. Yea,finally bought t-shirts for c2.2. Don't be jealous k? Ahah. Oh ya,i met Aida n her brothers at the LRT. she too went to time square. Oh oh,Felly shopping sakan. She bought 2 pasang kasut n make ups! Oooo. Well untungla cantik kan kan? Conclusion, jangan buat obvious sangat that u're shy. Be confident Brena. U x nak kena buli kn kn??

We the kings-just say you like me :)

2011-10-25T17:34:00.000-07:00

Wookay.I'm not saying that I'm hot. Yeah,obviously I'm not.pfft. =,=
Just FYI,no matter how sweet you are in your text,I'll always stick to this principle

If u want me to be your Gf? Yes Gf? Then,u must have the guts to tell me live and personnel. No.IT'S NOT CLICHE.

You know why? Yes,guys who say I live you to you,are many girls. But who means it? Only the heart know? So that's just the way to test their bravery and wether their serious. You know why? I'm sick of being heartbroken too many times. I know it only has been twice but the pain hurts. Both of my relationships end after a 14 month of bittersweet roller coaster ride.

So there.anyways,
Mercy for listening :D

Study study study study

2011-10-22T03:50:00.000-07:00

Wishing for something

2011-10-22T03:47:00.000-07:00

I'm learning to accept the fact that life sometimes can be harsh.uncle went out AGAIN.so here i am. Sitting in the living room watching The the tv,onlining with the iPad n textin on my iPhone. Hey,good luck in Perth. Do everyone proud. I believe in you. Anyways,exam so far is frustrating. Haiyo,ingot kacang goring but x.cheh! Shah,4more subjects to go. Apa dia?
CHEMISTRY PHYSICS BIOLOGY ADDMATH.
Jealous la kadang2 tgk budak lepasan PMR nie. Nak juga join main.
NO NO! STOP IT.
Focus focus.spm is getting nearer. Brena University of Oxford is waiting for you (:

Oh ya.try listening to this song:Cody Simpson-not just you.
I've been rewind-ing it in my iPod for weeks.
Sentimental gila!
Toodles for now.

2011-10-01T22:41:00.001-07:00

Let's say,i'm glad that u're my friend. Merci beacoup :)

Esp:ur lawak hambar n ur caring compassion. Don't forget,ur awesome taste in music!

2011-10-01T07:58:00.001-07:00

Sitting in felly's room. Thinking how stressful it might be tomorrow? Addmath,kalau blh dh lama nk drop. Oh tak boleh tak boleh. Brena keep up up ur faith. Hari tu blh jer dpt 6A 2B,slack addmath C :( physics pun 69! Adohyai. Nampak sgt cikgu tak berkat. Cikgu nak saya buat apa eh? Saya sanggup jd bibik ckg kalau nak. Cikgu nak saya angkat buku cikgu? Kemas meja cikgu? Boleh jer,asalkan resukts saya jamin GEMPAK. well all i can say is that exam dh nak dekat. Debaran pun dh terasa. Apa lagi,bdk2 PMR. All the best yea? Ala PMR senang la (: to Donata Buckland,pls do ur very best. RMC is waiting for u. I pray for u always la adik(:

P/s: thanks la kawan baru,for being the lamest person i know. Aha (:

2011-09-16T02:31:00.000-07:00

everyone.let's go to KLCC tomorrow.

LOVE YOU GUYS (:

2011-09-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

my sistah,

nanti kita karoeke jom! ramai-ramai lagi best (:

yang dh confirm :

khaisyiah

nurul tieka

farzana

siapa lagi nak join? time hari Malaysia =,=

~~org smgt patriotik,kita g karoeke? kalau cmtu,jom nyanyi lagu patriotik je la. LAME =,=~~

where was me and you?

2011-09-02T07:56:00.000-07:00

~~last night,you called.~~ it was like nothing happened. you said you did not call me because you wanted me to cool down. well,sedap you biarkan i camtu? =______________=
yes,my heart ached everyday waiting for your call. i always wanted you to be the one giving up. you saidd i was the one who popped up the question.hello? logically! do a girl like me one to end a relationship? it has been 14 months.the thing that hurted me the most is when you confessed everything to me. here it goes,

"Brena,you know everytime the clock strucks 11pm,i feel like a huge burden has been given to me. i must text and layan you,kalau tak you mesti merajuk. i don't like being with you 24/7.if you wan to be friends than it's up to you?"

well,last night sorry for say ~~F%*#@~~ at you. what can a girl do? my heart hurts so much when you said like that. here's my reply to you.

"hey,what happened to the word forever? i envy my friends when they had their late night calls esp natasha nabila with her afiq. he seems like he really loves her. they never got bored of each other. if you love me you'll never feel like i'm a burden to you. did you know that everyday i'll wait for your text or call? i'll rush back to the asrama hoping that a text from you will be there on my cellphone. yes,i know you're in a guy school so friendship means a lot than me. that i can't blame so it's true. bye,thanks for everything =,=

to Mr xxxxx

2011-09-01T07:01:00.001-07:00

my dear september (:

2011-09-01T06:55:00.000-07:00

~~i just realised~~ today was the 1st of September. tomorrow it'll be the 2nd day for Mr.September. all i can say is that i wish to have a better luck in life. and here is my wishlist for this month.

be a better worshiper to God
a better daughter to Mr & Mrs Buckland
a better student to SMSS teachers
more focus in class
never buat case lagi
more more rajin prefect =,=
get that 9A+ for SBP trial

it relates to me so freakin much =,=

2011-08-31T08:54:00.000-07:00

I throw all of your stuff away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages

I tell everyone we are through
'Cause I'm so much better without you
But it's just another pretty lie
'Cause I break down
Every time you come around
Oh oh!

So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better than trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again

Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together, you'd think that by now I'd know
'Cause here we go go go again

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Every time that you look at me

You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't be with or without you!

regrets hopes dreams

2011-08-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

this is an advice from a dear friend of mine.

he's right. maybe that day will come. for now i must enjoy life :)

go Brena catch that dream of yours. Oxford is calling your name!

hey amir,
when we were F3 i remember we n cha mesti share share stories mcm there's no tomorrow.
well,when i'm down,you guys were always there. i'm jealous of you too bcs you guys were damn clever. no need to study dh blh ace.but then without realising you guys were the one who made me strong. u made me want to beat you guys. now,i'm quite sad,that both of my dearest friends are not here anymore. well,all i hope is that u guys have a blast in life. maybe one day we will meet.

baru la tu..chill la brena..its noting..theres a lot more better outside there..no need to search 4 him..he will eventually come towards yourself..be strong la kawan :)
.

similar much =,=

2011-08-31T03:39:00.000-07:00

i think my conversation with Mr xxxxx is ALWAYS like this.

~~and this is what kills me and ended us.~~

it's just liddat (:

2011-08-30T20:43:00.000-07:00

i have nothing to say or to today.

~~oh wait,i do!~~ but i i think pictures speak ten times better than words.

2011-08-29T19:35:00.000-07:00

BOREDOM GETS THE BEST OF ME =,=

Happy Raya (:

2011-08-29T08:01:00.001-07:00

ipod jammed with THE SCRIPT.

2011-08-28T22:18:00.000-07:00

you guys asked?,

"what is my ultimate favourite band?"

then i answer,

"the script"

letting go is the hardest part.

2011-08-28T21:26:00.000-07:00

last night was the day i learnt a very important lesson.

my dear readers,
in life you will have someone new that enters. maybe their presence could only be temperorary or forever. sometimes,they would be the best friend that you never expected to have. they will listen to all your problems. they will protect you from all dangers in life. but then one day,you realise you have to release them,because they deserve someone better. someone who understands them. someone who will always take care of them. please everyone,appreciate others. you will never know that sometimes you enemies are your closest friends. speak to them. or at least say hi? don't care what other's say. u know what you want in life. if u love that person,please say yes. don't ignore him because in life you'll never get second chances. what is done is done. so if times do get rough,just look at the bright side and praise God for, everything happens for a reason. i love you dear friend. i hope you know that.

please this song is dedicated to you:

I’ll leave the door on the latch if you ever come back,

If you ever come back,

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat,If you ever come back,

They’ll be a smile on my face and the kettle on,

And it will be just like you were never gone,

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat,If you ever come back, if you ever come back now,

If you ever come back if you ever come back now

~~bye~~

freaking awesome ladies (:

2011-08-28T02:23:00.000-07:00

i was just blog walking and was shocked to see the posts i found in myza's and tieka's blog.

To Hamizah Haspi Harun,

my darling yang handsome,thanks for always being there for me. i know it's hard to understand me sometimes. my emotions always take the best of me. it's just hard to control. i think u are the only one who can relate into my problems right now. yes,i'm trying my best not to fool myself. i'm trying to stand upright on this solid ground. sayang,i'm glad that you're not fooling yourself anymore. you really love him. it's so obvious la yang. take care and appreciate him while his yours. please don't regret every second you're with him. about our friend

ship,i hope it'll last till forever. all our problems we can overcome together. nothing mountain is too high for us to climb. nanti malam after cuti,we have to start operation stay up. SBP trial dh nak dekat. cuak la syg oi. kalau u nak gayut pun,gayut before tidur. focus jangan pernah hilang. u should jadikan si dia sebagai pembakar semangat anda to study. make full use of him,dia kan budak 4 JAYA.

i love u so much.

to Nurul Atikah,

u're always there to lend me a shoulder to cry on. we have the similar problem i think? well,i'm glad that u're okay with ur Ku Akmal (: sayang,i ingat lagi dr awal tahun,kita mesti gila-gila together. video menari kita dh pernah buat,video clip menyanyi pun kita dh buat. lps nie buat fashion show pula. jangan lupa bawa short dress you tau,bolah tangkap gmbr sama2 at the karoake centre. ahah,sayang,i know u're determined to go that Aussie land. yes,Aussie is beautiful. the shopping complex are superb. u have the beauty my dear and the brains of an einstein-nettte. just keep focus on ur studies k darl. buat si dia terasa terancam dgn kepandaian anda. eventhough i'm not clever,i'm always here to teach you darl.

conclusionnya,dua-dua babes nie are my sayang. don't u ever hurt them or even leave a scar on them. if yes,i'll find you hingga ke lubang jamban. i sumpah.

p/s:if i love that person,i'll jaga them because i know no humans are capable of standing alone in all obstacles of life.

thanks (:

2011-08-27T09:54:00.000-07:00

good life (:

2011-08-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

new mission.

2011-08-27T07:13:00.000-07:00

everytime u call,u never fail to give me those goosebumps. slowly i'll change.

the word change now has a huge meaning to me. i'll change for the better. and yes,i'll follow ur advice.no more couple. 2 heartbreaks is enough. my heart is locked for now. maybe time could heal me. there's nothing u could do to make me accept u back. yes,

like what DEMI LOVATO says,

u can take everything i have,

u can break anything i am,

like i'm made out of glass,

like i'm made out of paper,

and try to tear me down,

i'll be rising from the ground,

like a skyscraper.

Didamok and Myzahandsome this is my boomerang (:

2011-08-27T03:06:00.000-07:00

2011-08-27T02:52:00.000-07:00

I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
'cause nothing like this ever happened to them,
Now I'm pacing up the hall, chasing down your street
Flashback to a night when you said to me,
"Nothing's gonna change, not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose"

Saat kau ingat aku ku ingat kau
Saat kau rindu aku juga rasa
Kutahu kau slalu ingin denganku
Kulakukan yang terbaik
Yang bisa ku lakukan
Tuhan yang tau ku cinta kau

I used to want you so bad!
I’m so through it bad!
Cause honoustly you turned out to be the, best thing I never had!
Oh you turned out to be the, best thing I never had!
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

papa's lil girl (:

2011-08-27T02:40:00.000-07:00

mama's in the kitchen eatin durian. papa's in the room sleeping. Hesper's playing the computer with full attention. Donata's too sad to express hie feelings right now. sometime i wish i could understand Donata better. latelty,he feels quite depressed. mayebe he has the middle child sindrome? hey Donata,u're love by all your family members. eventhough UPSR was not what mama expected but still you did us proud. so please do well in your PMR. it's super dang easy. trust me.

remember when Hesper was not born yet,we were like inseperable. we sang like crazy dudes till late night. we conteng mama n papa's bedroom. we played power rangers inthe living room. and the bathroom incident was still clear in my mind.

"i'm sorry for pushing u into the bathtub. i seriously didn't mean to. so that's how u got that stich on that forehead of yours"

so the main point is,

EVERYONE PLEASE BECAREFUL WITH BRENA. SHE'S TOUGH LIKE THE INCREDIBLE HULK.

changes (:

2011-08-27T00:46:00.000-07:00

maybe life is really full of changes even if we hate or love it. remember to always look at the brightside of things. maybe in the end there is someone better for you. i'll always remember you dear friend. and to the newcomers ,welcome to my life. i hope u'll treat me well,because i maybe absurd in certain things and well sometimes i can be crazy with my HOT MAMA CHICKS :)

nurul tieka,adida noor zuhdi,adrina raihan,hanisah mohd noor,natasha nabila,hamizah haspi,felly alvina,nur khaisyah. wany erdela,faheza,together we can overcome everything. trust me. love u guys till the end.

hey you,

Tak usah kau terangkan ku tahu,

potret wajahmu di setiap penjuru,

curahkan deritamu padakubiarku rasa apa yang kau lalu

time to move on Brena (:

2011-08-26T08:30:00.000-07:00

i'm trying to move on and last night i really cried out till my lungs fell off. it was damn humiliating.

if u want to know u're da only guy that has ever made me cry like this. i'm tired of bein played like a puppet. slowly day by day,i hope the memories we had would slowly drift away. i wish u all the best in life. one day,i'll show u that i'll fine the perfect guy. the only one.

hey,i'm waiting.

i'm not missing you

2011-08-26T00:48:00.000-07:00

maybe i'm too emotional today,but what the heck?
i think i started to get close to you during form2. that time C2.1 was the saksi for our friendship. time tu dormate dgn adida skali kan. havoc sgt sgt. inagt lg time pagi2 mesti kelam kabut. you and adida mesti yg paling lmbt,so terpaksa i duty dorm alone. but as ganti korg tegangkan katil n iron bj brena. memang best siot (:

and then time form3 pula tiba. the big PMR pelu diconquer sama2. inagt lg myza dorm C1.4, dia C1.5 n brena C 1.6. ahah malam-malam berkampung la kte kat dorm C1.6. stidy sama2 n gayut sama2. ahah. memang sial la kte. ahha.

form 4. the senior (:
myza dh jd naib kapten,brena dh jd prefect,dida pula jd sidang redaksi. whoaah! hebat kan kte tiga nie. i seriously miss u guys so freakin much. this i promise u guys,together i'll be with you two through everything.

p/s:ingat nak letak gmbr of us. but then lupa pulak u guys pkai tudung. so x jd la. RESPECT la katakan. i love u guys so freakin much.

FELLY ALVINA (:

2011-08-25T21:52:00.000-07:00

time is ticking. and i'm still lying on my bed. Brena,wake up! it's already the month of August. oh last night was Felly Alvina's birthday. aha,leat me guess? Syafif was the first to wish. oh! u guys are so sweet. eventhough,Felly has a head that is hard as metal,syafif u still manage to catch her hard. with a little bit of preseverance and patience u will get her. never give up. but,when and if u did get her,please jgn lepas tangan cmtu je. like the guys that i once knew. she's my cucu,so please don't hurt her.

my plans for this holiday is well,
just study =,=
shopping (: raya visit-ing (:
movie-thon with HESPER BUCKLAND :D

pretty girls (:

2011-08-25T21:31:00.000-07:00

i owe u lots .

2011-08-25T21:08:00.000-07:00

roughly,this girl really means a lot to me. without her,i wouldn't survive my years in yayasan. she's the one who taught me everything that i need to survive without my parents. Thanks so freaking much AIMI MUNEERA. keep on rocking babe n always strut ur stuff because all the guys are dying to have u. and that's a fact. love u.

doodle you (:

2011-08-25T10:18:00.000-07:00

everyone was so addicted to my drawings. i was like so freaking proud. yup,that's my only talent. i wish oneday,i'll have my own company like that dodoo dolls. hey,you'll never know that it may come true. even Faris who has no heart fell in for my drawings. he even wanted to for it. lucky me.

i really can soften a friend's heart (:

2011-08-25T10:13:00.000-07:00

now nothing i could say,but is just SMILE (:

that's the only remedy for everything.

memoirs to u (:

2011-08-25T09:52:00.000-07:00

it's true what others said. "cinta itu time muda-muda cinta monyet sahaja" i know who am i to believe this? i'm just a girl who's heart was into fairytales,where that guy was the one,the FIRST and the only one. but then,when my foot set it to the year 2011,everything opened my once blinded eyes. i was just having fun without realising that i've left all my other friends behind. no i'm not saying that i've never loved him,tipu la tak sayang. dh 14 months la kot. last night i wanted to say this but u switched off ur phone.

Muhammad Izwan,
eventhough u jenis yg panas baran,i find it quite cute, u're the only reason why i try to be patient when things did not turn out the way i planned. all ur suprises that u've done were superb. it was way beyond my imagination. u deserve someone better. someone who could be loyal to u. someone who's really beautiful. if u want to know,day and night i pray for u. pray so that one day u'll change. u have the brain of a genius. u can change the way u're living now. i'm not tryin to make fun of u,but i want u to know that have the potential to be the best. u really are way from the usual. u can brighten up my day with all ur silly jokes.i'm glad that u're open with me. my friends said that u were not that type of guy to talk to girls. so basically,i'm lucky to know u.
it has been 14 months since we held hands for the first time. ur hands were hard but yet tender. u made me felt safe. i felt invicible with u by my side. but then,why can't you feel like that? u barely share all ur secrets n problems with me. u prefer sharing it with caunsellours u barely know. i just want u to know that i trust u. i know u'll never tell anyonw about our secret. ur name on my iphone will never change,"eeewan (:"
i'm glad that u were once part of me. i'll always pray for u.
dear friend,pls forgive me. but i think i have to walk away. i want to set u free from all the burden. YES,I LOVE YOU. but if that's all what i have to do,then i'll do it. as long as u're happy.

i hope one day i'll see u again.